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I'm pretty sure part of your most recent blog was about me. First things first, you definitely don't bother me, I've been dealing with changes to who I am, and am trying to get used to them while still essentially being me and it gets really stressful sometimes. I know it seems like I am getting annoyed, and the truth is, I probably am, but it's not because of you, I've started annoying myself to no end. There are so many things I want to talk to you about, I just don't know how to say them sometimes. And no matter what, even if I have to move the earth itself, you will not lose me, I can't do that to you and it would kill me too. As you very well (hopefully) know, I love you and I'm here for you too.

strike a chord

I'm so close to being done with my first song. Just some minor tweaking, then memorization. It's not great, but it's definitely not bad, I like it enough to where i would perform it in a concert setting. so yeah, expect a song from me in the near future.

Be safe...

So, I have this friend. His name is Garrett. He is one of my best friends in the entire world. He is the only one left that I'm actually friends with from my elementary school class. Sure, there's Patrick, but we don't really talk very often.

Anyway, back to the subject at hand. Garrett is going into the military and it hit me today that that means he won't be around much. Garrett is the only guy in this entire world that I feel I can trust with anything, I'd trust my life with him. I'm deathly afraid that once he's gone, we'll drift apart, he'll make new military buddies and i'll be stuck here. Sure I'll be making new friends too, but none of the guys will probably ever be as good a friend as Garrett was to me. He's probably my 3rd best friend in the entire world and losing him would destroy me. Some of you are probably thinking, "it's fine, you won't drift apart. He'll come visit and it'll be like he never left." but that's the thing, where he's going, it changes people, they don't come back who they were before, and scariest of all, sometimes they don't come back at all... I'm terrified for him. I know this all sounds utterly ridiculous to some people, but the thought of losing one of my best friends is one of the scariest and most painful thoughts I've had. No matter what, I will support him in every endeavor imaginable, even this one, but I do so very begrudgingly, because he will change, and he won't be the same care free, reckless person that I fall back on, even without him knowing.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that no matter what, he is my friend, and even tough I may not like it, he has to do what he wants and the most i can do is support him and hope it doesn't change him too much and that he does come back. I'm going to miss him more than most of you probably realize. with that, I'm going to stop writing this and move on to writing him a letter.