UGH

I really wish you would answer. You seem to be one of the only people who will actually talk to me anymore and I could really use it...

Is this a dream?

I think this might actually happen. We might end up doing a long distance thing, and I want to. She lives in New York and is one of the sweetest girls ever. I find myself thinking about her more and more and I think she is doing the same. She posted, "So, I have this friend, and when I think of him I can’t breathe. This is a disaster… <3" When I asked her about the friend she just gave me a wink face and said goodnight. Damn mind ninjas. Now, even if I didn't want to I can't stop thinking about her and what that might mean. Does it mean that the friend is me? I want this, and I think she wants it, I don't know if she wants a long distance relationship. Ugh, this is all so confusing.

I'm loosing everything

I'm loosing literally everyone and everything I care about. At this point I don't think that even my best friend would notice or care if I moved 8 hours away.

Not sure what to do.

kind of a pointless post actually. I'm just not sure if I want to keep doing mind the gap next year. I'm almost certain that I'm gonna audition for OTR again, but even if I don't get in, I don't know if I wan't to be a part of MTG. It's not the people or anything like that, it's the music, it's not the right style of music for my voice, alternative rock doesn't really fit an r&b/indie/pop voice...