I can't even think of that city without my heart sinking. I know leaving would be good for her but I hate the thought of it. Earlier today Hollis was talking about Chicago and London with Megan and I couldn't stand being within earshot, I had to go and just lay down because I knew that if I went into the practice room they'd know something was wrong. I really don't want her to go, I know it'd be something like 6 months from now (hopefully no less than that) and even though that seems like a long time, things are going to go by really fast and before I can even raise a hand, she'll be gone.
I don't even know why I'm writing this, it's not going to change anything, she is miserable here and I'd feel terrible if I made her stay.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Thoughts
so, everyone else has been posting about the people that mean the most to them so i think i'll give it a shot. i don't quite know how this is going to turn out and i will probably not be able to finish it in time considering that i have to go to be in 7 minutes (it's 10:53 right now). so i'm gonna steal other peoples setup.
Hollis- I find it astounding how much this girl means to me. When i feel down, I know that i can count on her to pick me up even if she didn't know i was down. Her very presence makes me happier. Sure she can be stubborn and hard to work with sometimes, but I wouldn't have it any other way, she wouldn't be Hollis if she wasn't like that. I would do anything for her. She quickly became one of my closest friends and i am proud to call her my girlfriend. I don't know what I'd do without her in my life right now.
Megan- She is my best friend in the entire world. She knows things about me that I didn't even know. Because I can't think of a better way to describe it, I'm going to steal her words "Even when we don;t talk as much as we should we have this special connection that just makes everything easier." I wouldn't be who I am today without her. She has changed me so much that I look back at who I was freshman year and I see a stranger. I can tell her anything and know that she would never tell anyone if i asked her.
Nick R.A.- This may surprise some people but nick means a lot to me and that's why I'm so hard on him about singing. he has the potential to be great and I trust him to lead the baritones next year, which is saying a lot since I didn't think he had what was needed till the show started.
Nick Van Eekeren- This kid affects me more than I realized. As I sat on the stage early this morning looking around at the people in the pit, I thought about what each person meant to me and when I got to nick, I instantly started crying again. I don't know if ill be able to handle his junior goodbye...
There are so many more important people in my life, but these are the top four right now. I would write more but I'm almost crying again so I'm going to stop.
Hollis- I find it astounding how much this girl means to me. When i feel down, I know that i can count on her to pick me up even if she didn't know i was down. Her very presence makes me happier. Sure she can be stubborn and hard to work with sometimes, but I wouldn't have it any other way, she wouldn't be Hollis if she wasn't like that. I would do anything for her. She quickly became one of my closest friends and i am proud to call her my girlfriend. I don't know what I'd do without her in my life right now.
Megan- She is my best friend in the entire world. She knows things about me that I didn't even know. Because I can't think of a better way to describe it, I'm going to steal her words "Even when we don;t talk as much as we should we have this special connection that just makes everything easier." I wouldn't be who I am today without her. She has changed me so much that I look back at who I was freshman year and I see a stranger. I can tell her anything and know that she would never tell anyone if i asked her.
Nick R.A.- This may surprise some people but nick means a lot to me and that's why I'm so hard on him about singing. he has the potential to be great and I trust him to lead the baritones next year, which is saying a lot since I didn't think he had what was needed till the show started.
Nick Van Eekeren- This kid affects me more than I realized. As I sat on the stage early this morning looking around at the people in the pit, I thought about what each person meant to me and when I got to nick, I instantly started crying again. I don't know if ill be able to handle his junior goodbye...
There are so many more important people in my life, but these are the top four right now. I would write more but I'm almost crying again so I'm going to stop.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
two world collide
I very well may get into trouble in the morning. but i don't really care cause whatever my mom can dish out, i can take in full stride. It was worth it. Glee and the most predictable movie I've ever watched and not finished.
Gah! is it hell week already? we open this friday. that's a scary thought. i don't know if i'm ready, we haven't worked some of what still needs to be worked. i don't have a costume for roger roosevelt yet.
I can tell sometimes that the frustration that i have in a day carries over into my performance as McQueen... I'm not a very good actor. i dunno, maybe this is all pre-show jitters, butterflies, whatever you want to call it.
it's been a while since i've blogged, like actually blogged. i've been a little preoccupied i guess. i've been working on a song and i am having such a hard time with it. i have a verse and a half but i might be scratching that half, it doesn't quite fit in. how i envy the people who can sit down and write a song in 2 hours... i've been working on this for nearly a month, i think i have some advanced form of writers block, i'll call it writers carbonite.
so, i'll leave you with the verse (that i am keeping for sure) of the song that i am working on
let me tell you bout my story
there ain't no fame and not much glory
the man that i am today
i owe to you, i swear it's true
so i, walk down the hall
and everything, it seems so small
in this world, we call home
through my heart, i'm left to roam
Gah! is it hell week already? we open this friday. that's a scary thought. i don't know if i'm ready, we haven't worked some of what still needs to be worked. i don't have a costume for roger roosevelt yet.
I can tell sometimes that the frustration that i have in a day carries over into my performance as McQueen... I'm not a very good actor. i dunno, maybe this is all pre-show jitters, butterflies, whatever you want to call it.
it's been a while since i've blogged, like actually blogged. i've been a little preoccupied i guess. i've been working on a song and i am having such a hard time with it. i have a verse and a half but i might be scratching that half, it doesn't quite fit in. how i envy the people who can sit down and write a song in 2 hours... i've been working on this for nearly a month, i think i have some advanced form of writers block, i'll call it writers carbonite.
so, i'll leave you with the verse (that i am keeping for sure) of the song that i am working on
let me tell you bout my story
there ain't no fame and not much glory
the man that i am today
i owe to you, i swear it's true
so i, walk down the hall
and everything, it seems so small
in this world, we call home
through my heart, i'm left to roam
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