Chicago

I can't even think of that city without my heart sinking. I know leaving would be good for her but I hate the thought of it. Earlier today Hollis was talking about Chicago and London with Megan and I couldn't stand being within earshot, I had to go and just lay down because I knew that if I went into the practice room they'd know something was wrong. I really don't want her to go, I know it'd be something like 6 months from now (hopefully no less than that) and even though that seems like a long time, things are going to go by really fast and before I can even raise a hand, she'll be gone.

I don't even know why I'm writing this, it's not going to change anything, she is miserable here and I'd feel terrible if I made her stay.