It's been a while

i meant to blog when i got home form the opera on friday, but slept instead, i meant to write saturday but watched tv instead, same with sunday, but i'm writing now... obviously... boy is there a lot on my mind, some of which i'll express now some i won't.

ok, back to friday, that was the most fun i've had in a long while. i don't know why but for the first time in a long time, i actually felt like i was fully accepted with a group of people, the fun started when i got back from bi-mart and found out that a few people going to the opera were going out and just chillin', i managed to catch a ride with Kaitlyn Joel and daniel. i've never felt super comfortable in Kaitlyns car, mainly cause i don't know her all that well, but whatever, i also didn't know that kaitlyn and daniel were dating till then, but everyone saw it coming at some point. First was a lunch at some mexican place near a cool little secluded doughnut shop. if i remember correctly i was with Ben, Daniel, Kade, Stephanie, Kaitlyn, Joel, Carly and Zoe. even though i didn't get much it was a lot of fun, found out that Joel and i went to kindergarten together, small world. from there we went to the little secluded doughnut shop, it was a really friendly place, only one person was working and she was extremely friendly. on the walls outside the shop the had clouds painted on a blue sky and it made me miss summer all the more. after doughnuts zoe left and the rest of us went to joels house to watch a movie. we were going to watch a Disney movie but Joels VCR wasn't working so we watched moulin rouge instead. most of us crowded on the couch while daniel was on the floor and patrick, who showed up at joels house almost at the same time we did without having been told that people were going to be there, on Joel's recliner. after the movie there was about an hour till the show started so stephanie went home to get clean (i don't actually know why she left but that's what i assume happened) kade took ben to his (kade's) house for dinner and the rest of us stayed at joel's. eric called and ended up chilling at Joel's with us. Patrick and i left early so i could get some money and so he could pick up stephanie. when we go to the hult Center we ran into Erin (i think that's how his name is spelt) and Samone (ran into Nick R.A. later but before the doors opened) so we waited till the doors opened with them. once in we waited for people and got tickets (Hollis and Carly were a bit behind the rest of us so we got their tickets for them). after that we went to get taco bell... i was reminded why not to get in a car with patrick when you are downtown... he almost took us (Nick Stephanie and me) the wrong way on a one way road... but we made it to taco bell alive scarfed down some food and got back to the hult center in time for the show.

Lights come up. on stage you see a chair a small little table with some random stuff on it, a crucifix slowly lowers via one of the hult center's rigging systems, being one to notice small insignificant details, i notice that the stage left side of the crucifix is slightly higher than the rest. Enter, Dr. Faust, he looks a little distraught you soon find out why though the first aria of the night. he then calls upon the devil and they have a fantastic number together. that was just the start of what promised to be an amazing show. soon thereafter came what is arguably the most amazing baritone ever. through his entire aria i was amazed, then came the last note, out of no where came what must have been and octave 5th overtone that was well audible and my soul melted a little bit. we met up with joel ben and eric (did i mention his intense v neck?) after the show. all in all it was the most amazing friday i've had in a very, very long time.

on to satuday.... not much to say, i did nothing... i slept till 11, woke up, laid in bed for an hour, ate, watched tv and that was about it...

same thing happened sunday, except i founf this show on hulu, i find it fantastic, it's called merlin and i can't get enough of it.

to today, day started good, i played guitar and sang, what more could i want? then came rehearsal where i did nothing. i took megan's ipod and joked around with her a bit but i quickly notice that this wasn't a day to do that so i told her who had it after she came back. after a while she was on the ground almost in tears. so, being the kind hearted person i am, i went to go see what was wrong, she didn't know, so i just sat there with her. then was papas pizza... could that have been much more of a wreck?

yeah, so that's what's gone on recently.

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on to today's poem

this one is brough to you by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

So, without further ado here is: Loss and Gain

When I compare

What I have lost with what I have gained,

What I have missed with what attained,

Little room do I find for pride.

I am aware

How many days have been idly spent;

How like an arrow the good intent

Has fallen short or been turned aside.

But who shall dare

To measure loss and gain in this wise?

Defeat may be victory in disguise;

The lowest ebb is the turn of the tide.

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i think that maybe i owe you another poem, this one'll do:The Beguiling of Merlin (after E.B.J.) by  Michael Villena

Cast thy spell, oh cruel one! Transform this flesh into spirit! To languish amidst lost growth. A prisoner wed to broken dreams, In this forest that seasons spared. With thy beloved voice now speak, And read from thy book and utter From thy lips where passion once flowed Now bitter promises that will entomb. That I had by my own hands once wrote, My very words now thine weapon, ever sharp, Thy jeweled dagger into this captive heart! Yet forgivness now my parting gift to thee. With loving hands affix thy eternal crown. And my love for thee will forever take What was profane and make it sacred! Even as thou whisper the final word, And so make well thy spell complete. Where once my being, now vines entwine. With my last mortal breath I say to thee, 'Love, I bid thee with sorrow... And these tears for thy inkwell. And this love I bequeath to thee. A final farewell, for all time. Adieu...' that's all for tonight. that was a long one wasn't it?