Tuesday, March 9, 2010

wow ummm... this feels kinda awkward

ok so, lots of bad things going on in my life, and very few good. just gonna ramble on, it won't make much sense and i won't blame you if you stop reading it
i guess i'll start off with, i have fucked up big time with school. and while i know that I've fucked up, i can't seem to find any motivation to try harder... with that as an opener it seems like it should get better from here right? wrong... because i fucked up, i am now at risk of beeing pulled from dubs and theatre. needless to say, that got me a bit emotional during my meeting with my counselor and i started crying... in front of my mom... never before have i felt so emasculated... here's where things start looking up a bit. turns out i've been more flirtatious than usual with Sass... i haven't noticed anything but apparently megan has so, i guess i must have been. ok so, i have absolutely no clue what i am writing anymore, it probably makes no sense. i miss the friends i used to have, the ones that i have since lost contact with. namely cassie. we're still friends and when she knows something is wrong she is always there and supportive, but at the same time i feel so far away from her... as of this moment my closest friends are megan, jeff and nick. i find it strange that nick has become one of my closest friends, before urinetown i really didn't like him but the more i hang out with him the more he grows on me. i don't know what else to say so i guess i'll end it with a simple: thank you, and good night.

1 comment:

  1. Silly boy.
    Nick has grown on me too. He's slightly less obnoxious than he used to be.
    Oh, and I love you.

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